New Post!!!!

Can't believe its been almost a year since I posted on here, first of all I am sorry that it is taking me so long to post something and I really have no excuses. But alot has happened over the past 11 months. I have had 2 surgeries, one of them was Dec 20th of last year, it was a life changing surgery that has made my life so much better. I had gastric bypass and so far I have lost about 157 pounds depending on whose scales I stand on. My marriage has improved and we even renewed our wedding vows on our anniversary, my oldest is a high school graduate and is taking a few college classes now. And that makes me feel so old!! My middle son, the one with autism is doing amazing, and my youngest has found God is going to be baptized on Christmas day!!! I also was recently baptized as well, God has really changed my life so much. Well that is the short version of what has been going on in my life, I will try to post more often. Also I was able to finally meet some of my birth fathers family. It was great, still have to meet some more including some half siblings, I never imagined that I would ever get to meet them, but so happy that I am getting a chance to know some family of my birth father. Will post more again soon!!!!

Updates, holidays, and changes...

Well, it has been along time since I have blogged...and so much has happened. I am homeschooling my oldest, well actually he is enrolled in a virtual on line high school, so it does most of the teaching. And I am 5 weeks out from having spinal surgery, on my c4-c5 disk. I had a spinal fusion and diskectomy done..and on the 20th of December I am having gastric bypass surgery...I have to admit that I am a little nervous, excited and scared all at the same time. I really want to loose this weight and be healthy again. I had gave up soda and started eating less and lost 28 pounds, but have gained 2 of them back, because when I found out my surgery date I started drinking soda and eating things I shouldn't, guess I panicked. But I am hoping it is just the holidays stressing me out.

My kids are growing like crazy, and are now young men, not mommy's babies anymore. I love them so much!! Money is tight and me missing all this work is not helping my stress level, although I do not miss my job at the hospital. I am also in the process of getting my insurance license, I have already passed my state exam and now I wait on the state to do there part. Guess I going for a career change along with my lifestyle change with my surgery...hope I can handle it all.

And on a more personal note, I have tracked my family on my fathers site, I don't know my father and never had. But according to my birth mother, and his ex-wife, and his brother, and now my half siblings I was told I needed to stay aware from him. So I am just enjoying getting to know my uncle and half siblings. I always hated being an only child, so now I have a chance to get to know brothers and sisters...I am excited and scared....but this has been something I have wanted all my life. So many new adventures are to be gone after in 2011...and I hope and pray that 2011 is so much better than 2010.

Peace and love I will try to post more often....

My first step

Yesterday, was a big day for me, I started the process to have gastric bypass surgery...I am so excited and scared....I have been thinking about this for a while...and made the decision to do it...everyone please wish me luck and say a prayer.

I almost wish I could do it and get it over with, but it is a long process, it could take 6 or more months to even get my surgery date...I will keep everyone posted.....

I think the hardest part of this will be giving up soda.....OMG...I really need help with that...

Its been a long time....

It has been a long time since I have posted anything on here.....kinda lost my interest in blogging..and really much of anything else...still hate my job, kids are growing up so fast, me and the husband are still together, things are ok.....just trying to take things day by day....spend a lot of time on facebook...I will try to get back into blogging again,....TJ is doing better, went to his autism doctor today...they are adding a new medicine to help with his anxiety issues...so keep your fingers crossed for us.....Michael the oldest is trying to stay out of trouble, homeschooling is doing good,,just trying to keep him motivated....hope everyone is doing well....

Just venting!!!!

TJ all he does is scream anymore....I am really tired of the screaming.....grrrrr..(gotta love autism).....
Plus I work with a bunch on crazy people....isn't it funny when you work with people older than you and they act like your kids....another grrrrrr!!
And please this is the south no more snow or cold weather I am ready for it to go away......
sorry had to vent...

It has been awhile....

ok...I know it has been ahile since I have been on here.....but life it so freakn' busy anymore....so here is the FYI.....
I am likeing my new job more and more....and I have started school again.....but I am getting out of the healthcare field...I love my classes....my new major is cybercrime tech and information securties.....the kids are growing up so fast...OMG, 2 of them are taller than me....my son with autism amazes me everyday....he is doing so good.....he loves to remind us that he is a teenager now...he was BIG 13 in January....and husband is still at his same job, but he is happy with it....and has also started taking some management classes....so again life is busy.....and our marriage is better, I guess we needed to have a bad spot..but we have made it through it. I will try keep up with this blog more....
peace for now
:)

Sorry!!!!

Sorry to all that is has been so long since I have been on here....so much has been going on....so for the short of it....here it goes....we have moved because I was offered a job at UNC healthcare and yes I accepted it.....the kids seem happy and I like my job....as for the marriage I feel that it will be ending soon...but I think it will be for the best....long story....that I feel I should not go into in this blog....

The schools are not as good as Mooresville NC schools..but the kids seem happy...so we will see how it goes....so far so good.....

I will try to do better with keeping up this blog.....

peace and love to all.....

UPDATE!!!!!!!

Sorry it has been so ling since I have posted anything...really haven't been in the mood...plus facebook is so addicting....

Here is a short run down of things....my mom has been in the hospital was on life support...made 2 trips to Ohio to be with her...but with lots of prayers and the staff at FMC..she has made a great recovery..she is in a nursing home/rehab center for now, but will hopefully get to come back home soon....we will keep praying...

We have a kitten....(my husband who has always said that he hates cats) brought home a kitten....and he loves the more than anyone else in the house...(will post pictures soon).

All of the boys made A's ans B's on there final report cards....... YEAH!!!!

Still struggling, but so is most of America....just trying to stay positive....

hugs for now....

Stress

Well things are stressful...hours have been cut at work but bills keep going up.....not fair.




now for some good news....TJ won 2 first place ribbons and 1 second place ribbon in the Special Olympics last week....we are so proud of him.

Don't have a lot to say..at least nothing really good..so I will call it quits for now...

peace and blessings

Old Pictures of my grandfather..he raised me and I will always call him DAD...

In memory of my DAD...although he was my grandfather he raised me and took me in as his own, he was the best father I could ever have asked for....these are just some random pictures in his memory....." Daddy you are deeply missed"

It's been a long time.....

It's has been awhile since I have been on here, finally got most everything put where it belongs in our new place. Everything is pretty much settled. As for the kids all 3 of the boys made the honor roll this 9 weeks...!!!!!!...YEAH!!! We are so proud of them.

My hubby finally was made full time at his work, so now we can have benefits...YEAH again.

As for me still working 2 jobs but have taken some time off from school. (FYI...please say a little prayer..I was stuck by a needle at work during a venipuncture and now I have to get my blood taken every 6 weeks...).

My dog is still lazy, that will never change. TJ my middle son with autism has hit puberty and his meds have quit working, so he is a little off the wall now...going through medication changes are rough, trying to find the right dose that works for him, let alone the right medication to put him on....this is week 5 or 6 now..not sure..we have lost count.

The oldest is a stubborn teenager....but him being bi-polar is making it much worse....since he made good grades we promised him her could get his learners permit...God help us all with him driving......

The youngest is growing up and no longer has the little boy look, he will be 10 next month..I can't believe it. Wow do I feel old.....

I will post some picture as soon as a I can....

Peace and hugs
Kim

Here is some pics of the freak snowstorm we had in NC...crazy.....

We are finally moved into our new place and everything is where it needs to go...YEAH!!!

till later...hugs

Sorry....

Sorry that it has been so long since my last post, things have been crazy/busy lately. We have moved to a better neighborhood and a bigger house. I am still working 2 jobs getting ready to start my 3rd ( and yes I am still in college)...I have to in order to pay all of our bills.

I will post pictures shortly showing the crazy snow we had in NC. the kids are kids of course and me and the hubby are okay.

Hope all has been good with everyone.

Peace and blessings

MMR and Autism

Before this came out, I had more than one reason to personally believe MMR is not the cause of Autism. Just my personal thoughts, experience and information I had been told by other parents. Too many people still have autism even though they were not vaccinated at all....
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Thursday, February 12, 2009

A special vaccine court ruled against parents with autistic children Thursday, saying that vaccines are not to blame for their children's neurological disorder.


The judges in the cases said the evidence was overwhelmingly contrary to the parents' claims — and backed years of science that found no risk.


"It was abundantly clear that petitioners' theories of causation were speculative and unpersuasive," the court concluded in one of a trio of cases ruled on Thursday.


The ruling, which was anxiously awaited by health authorities, was a blow to families who have filed more than 5,000 claims for compensation through the government's Vaccine Injury Compensation Program. The claims are reviewed by special masters serving on the U.S. Court of Claims.


To win, the families' attorneys had to show that it was more likely than not that the autism symptoms in the children were directly related to a combination of the measles-mumps-rubella shots and other shots that at the time carried a mercury-containing preservative called thimerosal.


But the court concluded that "the weight of scientific research and authority" was "simply more persuasive on nearly every point in contention.
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The court still has to rule on separate claims from other families who contend that rather than a specific vaccine combination, the lone culprit could be thimserosal, a preservative that is no longer in most routine children's vaccines.
But in Thursday's rulings, the court may have sent a signal on those cases, too:

"The petitioners have failed to demonstrate that thimerosal-containing vaccines can contribute to causing immune dysfunction," a judge wrote about one theory that the families proposed to explain how autism might be linked.


In 2001, parents began filing petitions for compensation through the vaccine compensation program. In all, more than 5,300 claims were eventually filed alleging that vaccines caused autism or autism-like symptoms.


The petitioners originally sought to present three different theories of how vaccines could cause autism. For each theory, there were to be three test cases.


SOURCE: http://www. foxnews. com/story/0,2933,491526,00. html

December...

Picture of the new puppy..his name is "Smoke"
Bandit giving Michael some love....
Front Door...
The kids decorated the tree this year....ans yes the dogs have already ate some of the ornaments....
our stockings.....for Santa
Me and my hubby...
The new dog
Bandit giving more love....
My boys being silly.....
Bandit, my sleepy little lazy dog....




I will just call this the December post, since it is December and I have been slacking on most everything lately. Life is crazy, my lovely hubby got another dog..he said this one is his....like my life is crazy enough....

I am still working 2 jobs, one of them I HATE...and one I LOVE....of course the full time job is the one that I HATE.......I keep praying for a different job....as you can tell I am depressed...this Christmas just isn't what I want it to be....I miss cold weather and snow...and of course money....

Hope everyone has a great Holiday Season...be safe and have fun....

(hugs)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

I just wanted to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING to everyone, this time of year is a time to reflect. And as I reflect I am THANKFUL for all of my blogging friends. Hope everyone has a good one.

Hugs

Unhappiness is.....

Sorry to be a downer, but I just can't seem to see things any other way. I know people have it worse than me, and I am grateful for my kids and surviving the car wreak. But I can not feel happiness anymore...my youngest wants to go to church but I can not make myself go...I have lose my way in life in every aspect of it. Not sure what to do...I just want to thank my blogging friends for there reply's and kind words. Hopefully someday things will change and change for the better...I am tired of crying.

hugs to all

Sorry ya'll I need to vent........

Okay, first of all moving to NC was one of the WORST mistakes of my life....I hate it here and it is effecting my marriage....I have NO friends here and my oldest is in so MUCH trouble with the law, school and pretty much everyone around. I have prayed but nothing is working...I am working at a job that I hate, my husband is in a dead end job..out good credit in now really, really bad. I am ready to have my phone turned off to avoid the bill collectors, I want to pay them, we just don't have to money. Things really suck..I was diagnosed with high blood pressure 2 weeks ago and I am now taking medication for it....I never had high blood pressure until we moved here. I am to the point of not knowing what to do....I really don't know what to do anymore. things have just went down hill and I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want my old life back!!!!
On a good note, my middle son made straight A's on his report card and my youngest made all A's and B's...my oldest the one with an IQ of 127 is failing 4 subjects...
Me and my husband have talked about going back to OH, but there is nothing there for us..at least that is how he puts it...I feel like there is..but he will not agree to go back...not sure why..his family lives there. I was happy there..but not here. I have really tried...I have to set and wonder if I am meant to be unhappy....I don't want to leave my husband just to move back to OH. Life really just sucks right now..I have had nothing but bad luck since moving to this freakin' state....I really hate it. Sorry to vent but I needed to before I screamed.

Halloween pics....

My boys.....
Not sure what Travis is trying to do....
TJ is trying to be scary....
Don't they look so excited....
I hope everyone had a great and safe Halloween....

Pictures of what is left of my car....

All I can say is OUCH!!!!!