Well, after trying the "new" supplements the doctor put my son on...he got much worse, his behavior is not totally out of control....so we are stopping the additional supplements...and going back to the way things were....I also received a letter today from my college in Ohio saying that I now owe them $1200, since I dropped out because of the move. WWWWHHHHAAAAATTTTTTT....are they crazy. So now that totally messes everything up for me to go to school here in NC.....I am so fed up......My new job I totally hate, and it is not the job itself..it is the people I work for.....I have years and years of medical training and can not get a job here in this state because of my training was in a another state....I think that is so crazy and stupid...I now have to settle for a dumb job in retail......Just sick of the crap that life keeps dealing out....so what to do next????????????????
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Another day........
Friday, October 19, 2007
Todays doctors visit
Today I took my son to his new doctor, and well I am a little put off by this visit. Everyone was nice and friendly, plus we were there for over 3 hours..a 10 yr old boy with autism in a little room for 3 hours.....UGH!!!!! And now this new doctor wants me to give him cod liver oil...and all these extra vitamins...he already takes plenty of vitamins and medicines....Don't get me wrong I am willing to try almost anything to help my son. My son is already a picky eater, and he wants me to take away all of his favorite foods...and give him stuff that I know he won't eat....I feel very frustrated now and torn on what to do.....
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
another day to think
I want to say thanks to the 2 new blogging friends that have replied to my blog, I really need the encourage at times and the friendship even though it is via the internet. Today still sucked but not as bad as the other day. I still wonder way and where life is supposed to take me, I am really tired of the roadblocks and the u-turns. Don't get me wrong I love my kids and my husband, but how did I get left out of this picture...still pondering life.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Today sucks.....
As I set at my computer checking emails and seeing the true friends that I have, the ones that have stuck by me over the years. I ponder why??? I have one true friend...do we only get one true friend throughout our lifetime???? This morning was a crazy morning already..my dog decided to take a dump in the hallway and my kids decided to go crazy this morning as well. I moved here to NC with my husband of less than 2 years so he could have his dream, but in the process I lost mine, he keeps saying that I will get into nursing school here, but I was already in nursing school in OH before we moved here to NC. And I was almost done I was going to graduate in 6 months....It doesn't seem fair, how did this happen??? Why did I agree to this, don't get me wrong I do like NC and my kids love it here, but what about me...I feel like a failure and a failure to myself. Today just sucks......
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Learning how to blog
Well, I am learning how to use this blogger...It is interesting. I hope to share my thoughts and dreams with my friends as well as make some new ones. I went to the Carolinas walk for autism yesterday..All I can say is that is was awesome and great, I met some new people and realized how lucky I am that my son is so high functioning, and that I love him so much and I love all of my children. I am going to make it a goal in my life to help find a cure for autism, it was a life changing day.
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Life
This is my first blog, and I really don't know what to say, other than life is so confusing at times I have to set back and think ...what the h*** just happened....I am starting over in a new state because my husband decided to go back to school, which is great, but I wasn't done with nursing school..so I tried driving back and forth for a few weeks....it was a seven hour drive.....but I physically and mentally could not handle it. So I quit nursing school, with only one and a half quarters left. And then on top of that my car breaks down. I have to set back and think to myself what the h*** I am really meant to do...what do I do now. Sorry to vent on my first blog, but it is how I feel right now.
