December...

Picture of the new puppy..his name is "Smoke"
Bandit giving Michael some love....
Front Door...
The kids decorated the tree this year....ans yes the dogs have already ate some of the ornaments....
our stockings.....for Santa
Me and my hubby...
The new dog
Bandit giving more love....
My boys being silly.....
Bandit, my sleepy little lazy dog....




I will just call this the December post, since it is December and I have been slacking on most everything lately. Life is crazy, my lovely hubby got another dog..he said this one is his....like my life is crazy enough....

I am still working 2 jobs, one of them I HATE...and one I LOVE....of course the full time job is the one that I HATE.......I keep praying for a different job....as you can tell I am depressed...this Christmas just isn't what I want it to be....I miss cold weather and snow...and of course money....

Hope everyone has a great Holiday Season...be safe and have fun....

(hugs)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

I just wanted to say HAPPY THANKSGIVING to everyone, this time of year is a time to reflect. And as I reflect I am THANKFUL for all of my blogging friends. Hope everyone has a good one.

Hugs

Unhappiness is.....

Sorry to be a downer, but I just can't seem to see things any other way. I know people have it worse than me, and I am grateful for my kids and surviving the car wreak. But I can not feel happiness anymore...my youngest wants to go to church but I can not make myself go...I have lose my way in life in every aspect of it. Not sure what to do...I just want to thank my blogging friends for there reply's and kind words. Hopefully someday things will change and change for the better...I am tired of crying.

hugs to all

Sorry ya'll I need to vent........

Okay, first of all moving to NC was one of the WORST mistakes of my life....I hate it here and it is effecting my marriage....I have NO friends here and my oldest is in so MUCH trouble with the law, school and pretty much everyone around. I have prayed but nothing is working...I am working at a job that I hate, my husband is in a dead end job..out good credit in now really, really bad. I am ready to have my phone turned off to avoid the bill collectors, I want to pay them, we just don't have to money. Things really suck..I was diagnosed with high blood pressure 2 weeks ago and I am now taking medication for it....I never had high blood pressure until we moved here. I am to the point of not knowing what to do....I really don't know what to do anymore. things have just went down hill and I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want my old life back!!!!
On a good note, my middle son made straight A's on his report card and my youngest made all A's and B's...my oldest the one with an IQ of 127 is failing 4 subjects...
Me and my husband have talked about going back to OH, but there is nothing there for us..at least that is how he puts it...I feel like there is..but he will not agree to go back...not sure why..his family lives there. I was happy there..but not here. I have really tried...I have to set and wonder if I am meant to be unhappy....I don't want to leave my husband just to move back to OH. Life really just sucks right now..I have had nothing but bad luck since moving to this freakin' state....I really hate it. Sorry to vent but I needed to before I screamed.

Halloween pics....

My boys.....
Not sure what Travis is trying to do....
TJ is trying to be scary....
Don't they look so excited....
I hope everyone had a great and safe Halloween....

Pictures of what is left of my car....

All I can say is OUCH!!!!!

Sorry...still no pics....

Just wanted everyone to know that I am still around....working 40++ hours a week...oh by the way my job is only part time....????.....ALWAYS TRIED......

Kids and everyone are cranky....will fill everyone in more later...I have to get up at 4am so I need to go get some sleep....

Peace and hugs...

Election video...

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MVA

Okay, Monday REALLY REALLY sucked....I was on my way to work, (at my new job that I have only been at for 2 weeks)..My car was hit by a tractor trailer and spun across 4 lanes of traffic on I-77 in Charlotte NC.........How I survived with only minor injuries I am not sure...I walked myself to the ambulance....my car is totaled....and the trucking company is not wanting to pay for any damages....I am happy and lucky to be alive, but I still have to feel that why me...things have been so bad lately for our family...and then this happens...I do truly feel that I had angels watching over me that day....I am having nightmares about the wreck and I can not sleep....any advice????

And I will post pictures of my car in the next few days...

My last day @ my current job...a reflextion...

Okay, today is a bitter sweet day, I am starting a new job on Tuesday. I have been at this current job for awhile starting out as a CNA then was gone for my surgery and came back as there receptionist..and for the past 4 weeks I have BEGGED for more hours...(FYI: I only work 2 days a week)...There is a full time opening and I have begged for that as well...so I am now tired of begging...My employer is not giving me any hours, or offereing me any. So today is mu last day..I am quitting, but the funny thing is that I gave them my resignation 2 over the past 2 weeks and they will not accept it...oh well that is not there problem.

I really have enjoyed the people and the residents of this place, but it is time to move on...

As for my kids there are enjoying being back in school, my oldest will start on Tuesday, he will be going to a college prep school. ( Charter School). He is excited and nervous all at the same time.

Now for a reflextion on the move to NC, it has been a year since we moved here..I see it as one of the worst moves we have made. My husband had to quit school..(the reason we moved here) because we could no longer afford to live with him only working part time, and me part time. I have gave up on school, so I guess I will never live my dream and always be a big dumb loser. And now my husband is a quitter as well, the resentment for this move is even bigger now....Not sure how to handle it.

The ecomomy sucks here and so does the pay, not sure how to find my inner happiness any more.....it has been crushed..my dream has died....so now I will work as a phlebotomist in a huge hospital for base pay..which isn't much...but at least it is a dollar and twenty cents more than where I am now. But I have to drive and extra 25+ miles. ...So I will not be making any more money, because of the gas prices and milage...but I will get many more hours than the place I am at now.

Things just are the way I planned them....what went wrong??? I wish I knew....

Peace to all