Here is my brain, what is yours????

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Christmas is over.....

Christmas is over and I am busy taking down all of the decorations and plus unpacking from the trip to Ohio....So once I get things back in order a little..I will post pics and blog more....Hope everyone had a great Christmas!!!!!

Out of town for the holidays....

We are leaving for Ohio tomorrow around noon, so I just wanted to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!! And for everyone to have a safe and happy one as well.

As for today, it has been a busy one. My middle son keeps having nose bleeds so we had to go to the ENT and have is blood vessels in his nose cauterized. (not sure if I spelled the right or not). He handled it like a little trooper, he did great!!! I was so proud of him. And also in the mist of all that drama I had to go and register for classes...I finally get to start nursing classes again, the school had several people quit and flunk out so that left room for me....Finally.....

Peace, love and many blessings to all....

Till next time and when we get back from Ohio.....

Faith

Okay, well I am going to talk about something I really don't talk about much, but since I did something on Sunday that I have not done since grade school, I thought why not, it got me to think. I went to church with my neighbor, she had been taking my youngest son with her for a few months now because her son and my son mine are best friends. So she talked me into going and taking all my kids with her. I was a little uncomfortable at first because I don't really believe in a one religion being right or wrong...they all in my opinion have there good and bad points. I was raised as a baptist, but when I was in sixth grade I was saved and was going to be baptized, but my cousin that was the preacher..killed himself a week before I was supposed to be baptized....So I and my family quit going to church...I never really stop believing but for years and years I really did not know what to believe...and really still don't.

I have been to many many churches of different religions, hoping to find my place...but it has never really happened for me. I somehow feel like all of the religion belittle women...and always place man above women...I have a problem with that...and I guess I always will. I know that there is a higher power but that is all I believe, I try to live by the saying to unto to others and you wish done unto you....and I just keep it that way. As for the church we went to...it was a baptist church....but my kids love it and want to go back...all of them even my teenager....that was a shocker for me....As for me I will go because they want to go. But as soon as I find out that they are teaching my kids to fear GOD or the higher power they will not go back...I don't feel that he/she should be feared....why fear someone that is supposed to love us????

I was very disappointed in all churches when me and my now husband was looking for someone to marry us....we searched for several months to find someone...we wanted a church wedding..and we were told no, so many times. They said that since we were both divorced and that I had kids they would not marry us and we were sinners.....I really lost faith then and so did he....that is and was crazy.....his wife cheated on him and mine tried to kill me several times..but the preachers said that they did not care why were divorced..it was a sin to remarry....just imagine how that would make you feel. We finally found a church that would marry us, was a "United church of Christ"....I found them by the commercial they had shown on TV. It was them taking anyone into the church, not turning people away just because of sexual orientation or race...etc....It was a touching commercial. We meet with the preacher and he welcomed us with open arms into the church and gave a us the perfect wedding that we wanted...so I retained some faith at that point....So I guess what I am blogging about is that I believe, but haven't found my place to fit in yet. If that makes sense....Sorry to ramble but this is something that I needed to talk about....Still looking for my faith.

PEACE, LOVE AND MANY BLESSINGS TO EVERYONE!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

Breakfast with Santa...

We had breakfast with Santa this morning..and the kids loved it, at least the 2 little ones did, the oldest stood outside because he did not want to be embarrassed....Here are the pics....I also have included a pic of the 2 dogs beside each other, as you can tell I had to hold one of the still for the pic....

10 reasons

Well, my friend Sherry wanted me to list 10 reasons why I like being married, basically to look at the positive instead of the negative. Since the negative has really had control lately...I am gonna try to see if I can list 10 reasons....Here is goes....

1) Having someone there to go check out the strange noises in the night..that way I don't have to.

2) Having someone there that is tall to reach things high up in the cabinets, without me climbing up on a ladder.

3) Now I can say to the kids.."wait till your dad gets home".

4) Having someone to snuggle up to on a cold winter nights.

5) Having him but me quirky little gifts, like the socks with toes in them...because he knows I have cold feet.

6) Knowing that I am loved, because I can see it in his eyes, when he looks at me.

7) Knowing that I am not alone, and don't have to grow old alone. (Hopefully)

8) Hearing the words "I love you" on a daily basis, other than my kids saying it to me.

9) Being asked "how was my day" and having someone actually listen.

10) Hearing my kids say "I love you mommy and daddy".

Ok, I have to admit that was kinda hard to do, because I kept wanting to write and think about the negative....because we do have issues...as do all couples from time to time...but since this move things are worse...I am trying but sometimes I still feel like giving up...I am tired, my first marriage really wore me down....even though it was over a long time ago...those memories and nightmares are still in my mind...the distrust and fear....The "what ifs" am afraid has won....today was a better day than the other day...some are good and some are bad....I just want more good ones....but at least I can think of some good reasons...I do love him.

Another Dog!!!

Okay, my husband is crazy!!!! He went out and got another dog.....what is he thinking....here she is.....

Our snow ball fight

Non-Crappy Starring You! eCards on JibJab

Bad Dog part 2,.....

OK, here we go again. I had to take my 10 year old to the doctor today. I am in the office getting ready to check and I get a call from my oldest son who tells me that the dog tore up the tree agin, he found him trying to climb the tree...and needless to say when I got home the tree and house was a mess...the dog had a field day with the tree and garland....so now what...I feel like just taking it down and messing with it anymore.....GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......Santa is not happy with the dog......

What my Christmas is like....

Your Christmas is Most Like: A Christmas Story

Loving, fun, and totally crazy. Don't shoot your eye out!

What Movie Is Your Christmas Most Like?

UPDATE!!!!!!!

ALLEE HAD THE BABY!!!!

SHE WEIGHS 6 POUNDS AND 11 OUNCES, 19 INCHES LONG AND WAS BORN AT 8:13PM TODAY....

WE WELCOME "SNOW LYNNE" TO THE WORLD......

SHERRY SAID THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS.....

"o" Christmas Tree Again........

This dog may look cute but ...he doesn't like Chrtistmas Trees...so BEWARE!!!!!!!!
Okay, I had redo the Christmas tree today.....because my dog tore the tree up and ate half the ornaments...."BAD DOG".....so are going to try this again and hopefully he won't tear this one down...any ideas on this not happening again????????

UPDATE ABOUT ALLEE!!!!

The doctors have said that she had a mini stroke due to High Blood Pressure, her seizures they say are being caused by the baby.(Her BP is fluctuating a lot) She is doing much better now..and they will be inducing her labor as soon as a L&D room becomes available. They are saying she should deliver (hopefully) in the next 12 hours. Keep your fingers crossed....I will let everyone know when the baby is here....

Music Videos - Dear Mr President

Maybe the "President" needs to hear and see this so he will know how the real American public feels about him...

"O" Christmas Tree!!!

Well, we finally put the tree up...the kids did most of the decorating.
I have not anything from Sherry today..as soon as I hear something I will let everyone know...

Lastest update...

They have moved Allee off of the cardiac unit and to the OB floor....it is planned to deliver the baby tomorrow...at least that is what the latest news is....Allee is doing better, but is in a lot of pain...every time she stands up she still passes out....when I hear more I will let everyone know...

Allee update..

Okay, here is the latest update that I have. She still has not had the baby and every time she sits up stands up she passes out..so she is still in the cardiac unit for monitoring...Sherry is frustrated and so is Allee...They are now to the point of not telling Sherry anything, other than they want to monitor her more and are saying lets just wait and see.....I am sorry that I don't have more to tell everyone..but at least things have not gotten any worse....When I hear more I will let everyone know....

(I still miss Ohio and my buckeyes and all my friends in Ohio).....





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Update....about Allee

I just spoke to Sherry...and they doctors have told her that Allee had a stroke and that they want to do more testing..but she is confused that the testing they are wanting to do is for her kidneys...they are saying that the baby is keeping Allee alive..so Sherry is beside herself...I have run out of words to say to her...just keep all of them in your prayers...they are saying that the baby is healthy and their focus is on Allee. When I here from Sherry again..I will let everyone know.....

Another accident!!!!!

Okay, I have enclosed pictures of my accident and pictures of the accident that my husband was in today......2 accident and 2 cars wreck in one week.....The mirror on the gray van, is YES taped on.....it is embarrassing...but my husband said it is better than the electrical wires hanging out.....





One of his classmates hit the red car in the schools parking lot.......But at least I can call him "crash" now too.....And I have told my aunt...to CUT THE TREE DOWN ....before it tears up another innocent car, truck, or van..








The only thing I have heard from Sherry is that the doctors are running tests on Allee, and are trying to stabilize her heart so they can do a c-section. When I hear more I will post it.

mystiqeye

Could everyone say a prayer for "mystieye(Sherry)" and her daughter..her daughter is in the hospital and is pregnant...she is overdue and the doctors say the baby is healthy, but as for "Allee" she is not doing very well, they have discovered that her heart valves are not working correctly and that her BP is really high....the doctors are saying it is to dangerous to take the baby at this time...They need everyone thoughts, blessings and prayers now....We have a 16 yr old in danger as well as a little unborn child...plus my best friends heart and life as a mom and grandmother.

thanks
Kim

Just call me "crash"

Well, I went to see my aunt today, and the visit was great..it is when we left her house that I became known as "crash". I was backing out of her driveway, which by the way is up hill...and I am backing up a minivan..going up hill...now keep in mind that I have never been that good at backing up on level ground...so as I was backing....I hit a tree...and tore the mirror completely off of my van....so now my kids, my aunt & uncle, and of husband...all call me "crash".....My aunt said that I am the 5th or 6th person to hit that tree...so I told her that it is time to cut the tree down......what do you think????

What a week...

This is a cute dog and that came up and gave TJ a hug.....how cute!!

TJ was so happy, to hug the dog....
My oldest is somewhere is this group...Mooresville High School...NJROTC!!!!
Santa..need I say more.
My hubby.....
Travis asking when is this thing starting....


This has been a truly upsetting week...my husbands uncle dies and then the news about my aunt and cousin...I am truly speechless. But on the up side our Thanksgiving was okay, we decided to stay home and have Thanksgiving dinner, instead of going to my aunts house. Me and my husband decided to stay at home and reflect on our lives as a family. It was nice, and peaceful. Food and football and kids it was great. On Tuesday before Thanksgiving we were gone from 2pm until 9pm, because of the town parade....The reason we were gone so long is that my oldest was in the parade, the whole town and county pretty much shut down for the day, because of this parade...I have never seen a town parade last 1 hour and 45 minutes....wow. But is was nice, I attached pictures..i wanted to make a slide show but I have over 200 pictures from start to finish of just the parade..but I haven't done it yet. I want to thank everyone who left me such caring comments...Thanks again...I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving.

More bad news :(

More news today, My aunt (my birth moms sister) was just diagnosed with cancer. I did not know what to say to her..I was speechless. I have realized that the past couple of weeks have been bad and not just for me but for a lot of people. the bad things that have been happening to me (personally) is not as bad as some of the stuff that is happening to my family members...And on the 24th of this month is when my grandfather died (1996)..(I called him Dad, because he and my grandmother raised me until I was 13). So this is already a sad holiday and now all I have heard all day to day is bad news....It is hard to be happy when there is so much sorrow to deal with. I am thankful this thanksgiving..but I still feel sad and worried. Sorry to be a downer but I just needed to vent some of my feelings...

Peace and have a blessed Thanksgiving.

Need prayers for my cousin

Hello All,

I just received a call from my aunt and my cousin who has LUPUS is in bad shape. He has been rushed to the ICU and is on a ventilator. This is a sudden change in his condition...so if everyone can please say a prayer for my cousin, I would greatly appreciate it....He has been through so much already, he is only 2 years older than me. He has had a failed kidney transplant and is back on the donor list for the 2nd time....and now this. He was found unresponsive in bed and was rushed to the ER, where he had a seizure. And from that point on went even farther down hill. The doctors are unsure what happened to make him this way, because on Monday he was fine and tolerated his dialysis as normal. Please send "David" all your prayers and blessings...he needs them. And here is the kicker he has a 3 year old son and another child on the way at the first of the year. Sorry to ask this but he is my cousin and he is deeply loved.

Thanks Everyone
Kim

My kids......

This is my baby, he is 8 years old...and spoiled of course.
This is my oldest, he is 14 and thinks he is 30.

This is my middle child, he is 10 and such a sweet and loving child.

Okay..I've been tagged again

Okay, I've been tagged again...So here is goes.....

1. My favorite music is 80's music..
2. I love to cook holiday meals, but not everyday meals...they are just boring...
3. My favorite holiday is Christmas
4. I believe in Santa Claus......
5. I believe in love at first sight and falling in love on the first kiss
6. I like to fish and go camping
7. I believe that we all have a purpose, but I just haven't found mine yet....or maybe it hasn't found me yet.....

Okay,....now everyone is tagged.....

I've been Tagged

Okay, so here it goes...7 random things about me...

1. I love Nascar
2. I love the ocean
3. I am scared of thunder storms
4. I am scared of the dark, and yes I use a night light
5. I love to take pictures of everything...mother nature and the earth is an amazing place
6. I miss Ohio and would love to go back...and that is even a shock to me..but I really do miss Ohio
7. I have been searching for my birth-father for several and have been unable to locate him..I just want to see what he looks like, and yes maybe even hear his side of the story.....

okay, now I have to tag others.....

• trying to be perfect
• Sherry
• Molly
• Elizabeth
• Aprilyn

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It is a Bi-Polar day....

My oldest starts this morning off in a bad way. He is Bi-polar and well he is being very bi-polar already, he is mean and aggressive and already yelling. It is only 9:25am and I have already been called and idiot, stupid and a few other names I will not type. He has already called his brothers retarded and idiots as well. He has thrown himself against a wall and tore up his room. This is child is my son, but sometimes I feel like I wish he wasn't....I love him and can't stand him all at the same time, I feel bad about felling this way, but it is not fair. How did I end up with a bi-polar child???What have I done to deserve this kind of punishment?? I have always asked myself these questions every since he was diagnosed and well even before the diagnosis. He has finally calmed down for the moment , but who knows for how long. Sorry to ramble but this seems to help me deal, to write things out instead of crying.. He scares me and he scares his brothers. My son with autism doesn't understand...well hell I don't understand either.

All I want is happy kids and a happy family. But my oldest is never happy, except when he is in a manic state..which doesn't happen very often. He is mainly depressed and mad all the time. the doctors don't have any answers, only therapy and medications...well we have been doing this and guess what, he is still bi-polar and still has his days that is really bad... I guess today is one of those days...Lord help us all, it is going to be a LONG day.

Todays Test

Well, today I took the NC test for my CNA...I believe it or not I flunked...I pasted every part of the exam....but was told that I did the BP to quickly, even though I got the correct reading...."What the F***" . I really wanted to slap that lady....there was 18 of us taking the exam and only 3 past it...so what does that tell you about the testing here....out of the 18 of us....5 of us are from other states and are already CNA's....and we all failed.....Sorry about venting...but it is either vent or scream.

My Decision

After a few sleepless nights and lots and lots of thinking...I still have not come to a conclusion...other I know what I want..but I am willing to spend another two years to get it... that is the question....And I still don't have an answer...I think I know what I will decide...but I am not sure...sorry if I am rambling..but sometimes I have to...just to clear my head....

update!!!!!

I was finally accepted into nursing school, with 50% of my credits transferring. I guess that is better than nothing....Now I have to decide if I really want to repeat a bunch of crap that I have already taken...plus go back to school for another 4 semesters....YUK!!!! So now I have to make a decision...to I go or not......I have always wanted to be a nurse, ever since I was a small child...but now it is time to figure out if I want to go through all the crap of taken crap over and going to school twice as long as I should...(all because my husband moved us to NC).....Well...now what to do.......do I find another dream or try to finish this one......

Blogging

Well, This world of blogging is different. I started this blog to vent, meet new people "friends" and to say I want without pissing someone off. And if I do then, sorry..but I feel this is better than saying it to someones face, well at times anyway...and as far as other peoples blogs...if they ask for a comment then, what ever is said should be taken with a grain of salt. Remember everyone has opinions...as my grandmother always said " opinions are like ass-holes every one has one"....I might not agree with what some people have to say, and that is fine, but if you ask for my opinion, don't get mad if I say how I feel. That is how "I" feel , you don't have to feel that way. And the particular blog I that got all this started is the one that was talking about being a good "christian' wife...(I will not say her name...but she is crazy).....this "lady" said that women needs to be slaves to their husbands and wait on them and hand and foot....ya right....she needs to get a life....live in the real world..or just go back to the stone ages......And that is my opinion.....

Don't know what to call this one.....

Today and the past week has been an up and down roller coaster of emotions, I have happy, sad, mad and really pissed off several times....I am tired because of all the crap. I am now working full time with a BIG retail chain, but I did not ask for full time, I did not want full time, I don't have time for a full time job. If that makes sense. My husband loves his classes he is taking, and he likes his job, the kids love there schools and have made friends. I should be happy, but I am not. Not completely. I am going to talk with my employer tomorrow about cutting my hours. Hopefully I will still have a job. But on the up side I am meeting with the dean of admissions at a nearby college to see if they will take my credits from OU. This has been the ONLY college in this freakin' state to consider transferring my credits from OU. I loved NC growing up, I spent a lot of time here as a child, but now I am not sure I like this place, it is like the whole state has it in for me. For example, I have been a CNA since 1995, and this state is making me retest, because they will not accept my certification from the state I moved from. I think that is crazy. I guess that is how my life goes, sorry I had to make this a long one but I have to vent.

Another day........

Well, after trying the "new" supplements the doctor put my son on...he got much worse, his behavior is not totally out of control....so we are stopping the additional supplements...and going back to the way things were....I also received a letter today from my college in Ohio saying that I now owe them $1200, since I dropped out because of the move. WWWWHHHHAAAAATTTTTTT....are they crazy. So now that totally messes everything up for me to go to school here in NC.....I am so fed up......My new job I totally hate, and it is not the job itself..it is the people I work for.....I have years and years of medical training and can not get a job here in this state because of my training was in a another state....I think that is so crazy and stupid...I now have to settle for a dumb job in retail......Just sick of the crap that life keeps dealing out....so what to do next????????????????

Todays doctors visit

Today I took my son to his new doctor, and well I am a little put off by this visit. Everyone was nice and friendly, plus we were there for over 3 hours..a 10 yr old boy with autism in a little room for 3 hours.....UGH!!!!! And now this new doctor wants me to give him cod liver oil...and all these extra vitamins...he already takes plenty of vitamins and medicines....Don't get me wrong I am willing to try almost anything to help my son. My son is already a picky eater, and he wants me to take away all of his favorite foods...and give him stuff that I know he won't eat....I feel very frustrated now and torn on what to do.....

Autism...this is a cute picture...but my son is still the cutiest kid ever!!!! At least that is my point of view..

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another day to think

I want to say thanks to the 2 new blogging friends that have replied to my blog, I really need the encourage at times and the friendship even though it is via the internet. Today still sucked but not as bad as the other day. I still wonder way and where life is supposed to take me, I am really tired of the roadblocks and the u-turns. Don't get me wrong I love my kids and my husband, but how did I get left out of this picture...still pondering life.

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Today sucks.....

As I set at my computer checking emails and seeing the true friends that I have, the ones that have stuck by me over the years. I ponder why??? I have one true friend...do we only get one true friend throughout our lifetime???? This morning was a crazy morning already..my dog decided to take a dump in the hallway and my kids decided to go crazy this morning as well. I moved here to NC with my husband of less than 2 years so he could have his dream, but in the process I lost mine, he keeps saying that I will get into nursing school here, but I was already in nursing school in OH before we moved here to NC. And I was almost done I was going to graduate in 6 months....It doesn't seem fair, how did this happen??? Why did I agree to this, don't get me wrong I do like NC and my kids love it here, but what about me...I feel like a failure and a failure to myself. Today just sucks......

Learning how to blog

Well, I am learning how to use this blogger...It is interesting. I hope to share my thoughts and dreams with my friends as well as make some new ones. I went to the Carolinas walk for autism yesterday..All I can say is that is was awesome and great, I met some new people and realized how lucky I am that my son is so high functioning, and that I love him so much and I love all of my children. I am going to make it a goal in my life to help find a cure for autism, it was a life changing day.

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Life

This is my first blog, and I really don't know what to say, other than life is so confusing at times I have to set back and think ...what the h*** just happened....I am starting over in a new state because my husband decided to go back to school, which is great, but I wasn't done with nursing school..so I tried driving back and forth for a few weeks....it was a seven hour drive.....but I physically and mentally could not handle it. So I quit nursing school, with only one and a half quarters left. And then on top of that my car breaks down. I have to set back and think to myself what the h*** I am really meant to do...what do I do now. Sorry to vent on my first blog, but it is how I feel right now.